This week has been difficult, y’all. Not least because I am not from Louisiana and therefore “y’all” is not part of my regular vocabulary.
This week I ran out of time and finally had to press ‘send’ on my book to get it onto the respective publishing platforms I have chosen (iTunes and Kindle for eBook, plus Amazon for the printed softcover version). I have wanted to release this book so badly for so long and yet I was holding myself back. Yet today the time for procrastination was over.
First, there were issues in the text that I decided needing revision. After the second revision, when those issues became purely about fonts and character placement, I knew I was stalling. I forced myself to move on. Then I decided I wasn’t sure about my website. I paid two people from fiverr.com to review it. One loved it, and she gave me lots of smart feedback about how to improve it even further. One hated it. Like, HATED it from the first second he came onto my site and I had to listen to 10 minutes of live responses A.K.A. slagging-off that I had paid $10 USD for. At the end I said some rather nasty words in response to what he had said, because it actually stung. Then I shook it off and let it go.
I objectively compared his feedback with the previous feedback my lovely female reviewer had given me and realised that most of what they were pointing out were the same things; it’s just that I needed to understand that responses to my topic matter (dealing with depression) were probably always going to be a bit different between females and males (yes, a stereotype I know – yet the data backs up the theory; read my book!).
One of the things he kept coming back to was the typography of my upcoming book, Depression? F*** Depression!. He hated it, and I am not ashamed to admit it got to me, to the point where I began to despise my once-loved cover myself. Luckily, my graphic designer friend Chrissy stepped in at the last moment to give my cover the tweak it needed that made me fall in love with it all over again (and I knew it was true love, since my mouth dropped when I opened the message with her modified version and I sat staring at it for a full five minutes before I could speak).
Putting myself out there for such criticism was frightening, just as it is in any aspect of life. Yet, if I can’t cope with such criticism, what’s going to happen when my book is published on October 28, 2015?
That’s the thing about fears. You can either let them hold you back, or you can let your fears be the rocket fuel that propels you forward. Because what are fears other than False Evidence Appearing Real?
Shatter your own fears today. Do something so extraordinary that you take yourself by surprise. What’s the worst that could happen?
My forthcoming book, Depression? F*** Depression! will be released worldwide on 28 October 2015* and is now available for pre-order at my website: www.jeremygodwin.net/store. All pre-orders help to raise much-needed funds to promote the book upon launch, so please be generous and purchase a pre-order copy now! Pre-orders available for eBook or limited edition signed print versions. Thank you!
*Available on iTunes/iBooks and Amazon Kindle as an eBook, and in print from Amazon (including Amazon Europe)